At my menopausal-worst, I was in a relationship that wasn’t supporting, serving, or honouring me.
It was obvious we weren’t going the distance, but I felt so feeble and I was blind to the fact that I could do something about how miserable I was. I was ignorant of my options and I hit a very low low before I made my move.
I hadn’t been this weak in the past and recognising that made me feel lower still. Where had my courage disappeared to?
There were a lot of reasons and the result was me not taking care of myself at all. And when I couldn’t control my emotions, I got angry. When I got angry, I lashed out and when I lashed out, I felt guilty.
The slow decline of my confidence resulted in a decline in my self-esteem. The lack of memory retention created panic in me at work and I regularly felt stupid and old.
But the thing I remember most is not being accepted by my then partner. He didn’t hold back his aversion to perspiration, which I experienced relentlessly and it was impossible for me to get support or compassion from him. So we had a very bad relationship which went on too long, really, but that’s another story. We are actually now very good friends!
The point to this? I didn’t ask for help because back then, I didn’t know where to look, what to read or who to ask. I had slipped into a dark place and felt alone.
Well thank goodness that’s all changed! There’s a mountain of information available to us, and an abundance of people enthusiastically waiting to help with all their knowledge and expertise aimed directly at making us feel whole again, whether physically, mentally, emotionally, or spiritually.
As with every time I write, I ask that you please, PLEASE, reach out. Please don’t rely entirely on answers on forums where there are only other women in the same position as you, and no qualified professionals to offer sound advice. I can point you in the right direction.
I’m not a qualified clinician, dietician, or psychologist, or anything! I write based only on my own experiences, personal views, and research into menopause, and the fact that I want to help women. Please always seek the advice of a professional. Jacky Wood